so i am back again...... i was about to publish this post today in the morning..
but i wasn't able to write it down on my electronic notebook.....
reason??? ......i was not feeling good....and like i said in my last post that unknowningness has been an integral part of my life... so i didn't knew the reason.....why i was not feeling good
the only thing that was in my mind i know about, was Matrushka....
see!! that is the problem when you fall in love with someone....
you start thinking....
and think and think...and nothing else except think.....
i was .....like i said.... thinking!!!..... about a few days back...... i was like a wild horse. i did whatever i felt... and then past 2 days have really tested my nerve cells to limits....
this is what happens when you are in love....
i was a preacher a few days back...providing solutions to other people about their life......
and now you can see that i have transformed from preacher to a seeker...ha ha ha..
i have been asking everyone that what to do, how to do and when to do....
and people my godddd!!!
they must be thinking that oh! my god!! Is mr.vivek badoni asking for solutions from us???
like i mean... some of them might die of a heart attack....
some says...call her!!!
some suggesting me...you just go on writing your blog...
and some still unaware of the fact that why she is not conversing with me...
please don't repeat that again .."why is she not conversing ?"..
i can't take this anymore...
last night i sent again a friend request to her on facebook...
but no improvement....
like i said before we had a common friend...so i asked him the reason that why is she not responding??
he recited...that she had no choice between friends or me..
she elaborated a bit saying that she can't spoil the relationship with her friends just because of me...
now!!! what was that??? .......i mean it makes no sense....
when did i tell her that leave your friends and just converse only with me...i mean i don't remember that i
said something like that...
and if in case her friends are creating the choices....then what i can say is.....RIDICULOUS!!! really!!
are you her friends???
really!!! tell me, are you??
or are you her foes??? ..i think the 'foes' is the word for you guys.... am i right???
i mean friends are never like that........instead if you really consider her as your true friend...
you should have told her like this..."see Matrushka!!(i mean whatever you call her)...we are your friends, and just go on with the new guy...and if he dares to do anything wrong..then we'll see him!!!"
i mean if i had a friend in same situation..then i would have suggested him/her the same thing....
and if you think that i have done wrong by taking name in the public....then i already apologised for that guys...and if you are hungry for more apologies then i am ready to serve you more of it...
but seriously!! this thing called choice is really ridiculous...
i mean choices are created by enemies not by friends... give it a thought...
and yes, now back to you Matrushka....are all of you girls are of the same kind??/
i mean before also i wasted 3 years of my precious life for a girl...who quit me saying behind my back that
"i am a bastard"....
she always thought in her mind that i am helping her because i want favours from her....
and she was happy to take help from people who cursed her behind her back...
i mean do all of the girls go for the wrong choices...and are blindfolded in case of the right one.
are you all of same kind??
ok enough!! i can't take more of it!! let's forget it!!
like i was telling you before that i was not feeling good.... and when i am not feeling good..the only feel good factor i have is my Guitar..yes, the music!!
so i picked my Guitar ...the 'Signature' hollow box...i tuned it..and then i started playing some recent numbers...then drifting towards my own compositions...
music has played really a significant role in my life. it's been like a journey from physical to metaphysical and beyond...
i remember when i used to go for guitar classes at Rajpur Road...
you guys must be knowing about mr. Rejo..the finalist of the first opening of "Mtv Rock On"..
i mean he is a great guy....i'd loved manier times to see his fingers jumping, and drifting on his metal Guitar.
despite of his furiosity on the guitar he is a genuine guy... i mean he is not very old... may be 25 or 26 but still very down to earth person..great guy i must say...
once or i guess twice i met one of his friend...mr.David...an international pianist...he hails from Finland...
and his intensity???.... mind blowing guys!!! mind blowing!!
he must be in his 40's.. but foooooh!!! he is still a kid with exceptionally contagious behaviour.. i mean i was very much impressed!!
he had around 500 music compositions to his credit...that was 3 years back...
now, i am also pretty handy with the guitar..though still not very good at leads... but yes a few songs to my credits also..ranging from the soft rock to sufi... i did perform them at college level and yes i have received a warm response from the audiences manier times...
so like i was telling you that i switched to guitar to reset my mood...but it didn't work....
i then went to bed...
i woke up around 2: 30 p.m...had my lunch...but still i wasn't feeling good...
so i decided the problem is..... Matrushka!!!..and i need to flush her out of my mind or i can't work...
but see the magic of small things...i mean even the great ways won't work sometimes..and then a small things put you offshore...
i was texting my sis.... so i put a smiley at the end of the text...and guess what i noticed??
a "SAD Smiley"....ha ha ha ..a brisk smile appeared on my face...and i felt a tickling sensation in my head...
i mean a "SAD Smiley"......its contradictory...a paradox...don't you think so???
a smiley that is sad...that is really humorous... i mean the guy who invented the smileys was a genius..
infact a "Comical Genius"..i should call him...21 guns for the man!!!.... ha ha
so finally my mood was tuned like my guitar....ha ha...and then you know what happened next...
this crap came out...a total crap!!!.... ha ha...
but i wasn't able to write it down on my electronic notebook.....
reason??? ......i was not feeling good....and like i said in my last post that unknowningness has been an integral part of my life... so i didn't knew the reason.....why i was not feeling good
the only thing that was in my mind i know about, was Matrushka....
see!! that is the problem when you fall in love with someone....
you start thinking....
and think and think...and nothing else except think.....
i was .....like i said.... thinking!!!..... about a few days back...... i was like a wild horse. i did whatever i felt... and then past 2 days have really tested my nerve cells to limits....
this is what happens when you are in love....
i was a preacher a few days back...providing solutions to other people about their life......
and now you can see that i have transformed from preacher to a seeker...ha ha ha..
i have been asking everyone that what to do, how to do and when to do....
and people my godddd!!!
they must be thinking that oh! my god!! Is mr.vivek badoni asking for solutions from us???
like i mean... some of them might die of a heart attack....
some says...call her!!!
some suggesting me...you just go on writing your blog...
and some still unaware of the fact that why she is not conversing with me...
please don't repeat that again .."why is she not conversing ?"..
i can't take this anymore...
last night i sent again a friend request to her on facebook...
but no improvement....
like i said before we had a common friend...so i asked him the reason that why is she not responding??
he recited...that she had no choice between friends or me..
she elaborated a bit saying that she can't spoil the relationship with her friends just because of me...
now!!! what was that??? .......i mean it makes no sense....
when did i tell her that leave your friends and just converse only with me...i mean i don't remember that i
said something like that...
and if in case her friends are creating the choices....then what i can say is.....RIDICULOUS!!! really!!
are you her friends???
really!!! tell me, are you??
or are you her foes??? ..i think the 'foes' is the word for you guys.... am i right???
i mean friends are never like that........instead if you really consider her as your true friend...
you should have told her like this..."see Matrushka!!(i mean whatever you call her)...we are your friends, and just go on with the new guy...and if he dares to do anything wrong..then we'll see him!!!"
i mean if i had a friend in same situation..then i would have suggested him/her the same thing....
and if you think that i have done wrong by taking name in the public....then i already apologised for that guys...and if you are hungry for more apologies then i am ready to serve you more of it...
but seriously!! this thing called choice is really ridiculous...
i mean choices are created by enemies not by friends... give it a thought...
and yes, now back to you Matrushka....are all of you girls are of the same kind??/
i mean before also i wasted 3 years of my precious life for a girl...who quit me saying behind my back that
"i am a bastard"....
she always thought in her mind that i am helping her because i want favours from her....
and she was happy to take help from people who cursed her behind her back...
i mean do all of the girls go for the wrong choices...and are blindfolded in case of the right one.
are you all of same kind??
ok enough!! i can't take more of it!! let's forget it!!
like i was telling you before that i was not feeling good.... and when i am not feeling good..the only feel good factor i have is my Guitar..yes, the music!!
so i picked my Guitar ...the 'Signature' hollow box...i tuned it..and then i started playing some recent numbers...then drifting towards my own compositions...
music has played really a significant role in my life. it's been like a journey from physical to metaphysical and beyond...
i remember when i used to go for guitar classes at Rajpur Road...
you guys must be knowing about mr. Rejo..the finalist of the first opening of "Mtv Rock On"..
i mean he is a great guy....i'd loved manier times to see his fingers jumping, and drifting on his metal Guitar.
despite of his furiosity on the guitar he is a genuine guy... i mean he is not very old... may be 25 or 26 but still very down to earth person..great guy i must say...
once or i guess twice i met one of his friend...mr.David...an international pianist...he hails from Finland...
and his intensity???.... mind blowing guys!!! mind blowing!!
he must be in his 40's.. but foooooh!!! he is still a kid with exceptionally contagious behaviour.. i mean i was very much impressed!!
he had around 500 music compositions to his credit...that was 3 years back...
now, i am also pretty handy with the guitar..though still not very good at leads... but yes a few songs to my credits also..ranging from the soft rock to sufi... i did perform them at college level and yes i have received a warm response from the audiences manier times...
so like i was telling you that i switched to guitar to reset my mood...but it didn't work....
i then went to bed...
i woke up around 2: 30 p.m...had my lunch...but still i wasn't feeling good...
so i decided the problem is..... Matrushka!!!..and i need to flush her out of my mind or i can't work...
but see the magic of small things...i mean even the great ways won't work sometimes..and then a small things put you offshore...
i was texting my sis.... so i put a smiley at the end of the text...and guess what i noticed??
a "SAD Smiley"....ha ha ha ..a brisk smile appeared on my face...and i felt a tickling sensation in my head...
i mean a "SAD Smiley"......its contradictory...a paradox...don't you think so???
a smiley that is sad...that is really humorous... i mean the guy who invented the smileys was a genius..
infact a "Comical Genius"..i should call him...21 guns for the man!!!.... ha ha
so finally my mood was tuned like my guitar....ha ha...and then you know what happened next...
this crap came out...a total crap!!!.... ha ha...
HARD LUCK BOY....
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